A NEW SEMESTER....A NEW HOPE.....A NEW BEGINNING

It was not AT ALL exciting.....there was not a feel of hopefulness....

Rather it was a sense of mundunity.....a sense of routine.....

I was not excited at the thought of going to class today......Perharps there is some truth in the word "FRESHIE".....where these newbies/greenhorns are so FRESH that everything around them seems so wonderful......

I am tainted/polluted/burdened......by the heavy workload/bureacratic NTU system/lousy people/irritating stuff.........I am no longer FRESH....I am so rotten/decomposed/smell......

***cliche*** (gasp my mouth with my hand) OH MY GAWD....I CAN'T BELIEVE I AM IN YEAR TWO....TIME RRREEeEeeAAAlLlLLLYYYYYyyyyyYYY PASSES VERY FAST......

If NOTHING goes wrong, I will graduate in two years time....

Finally fulfilling what my last ten years of education have been preparing me to do so.....Then I may get married and pay for my first downpayment (and forever be enslaved to HDB) for my new flat.....have some kids.....worry about some mid-life crisis....balding and becoming fat.....

If only life is as simple as what I have just wrote.

If only life is as fast as I see it to be....(which in fact is....)

If only life is as enjoyable as it was meant to be.....

Looking ahead only made me looked back......pondering on the many mis-steps and life's questions.....

"What if....."

Looking ahead.....it seems boring.....however knowingly that life is not THAT SIMPLE....

Looking back......it seems distant....never to be lived again.....

Clear a my path in my mind to be........bleak/unknown/dark life can be.....

Happy now.....sad later.....

Hopes and disappointments....

The comings and the goings....

Ask not why you live.....

Ask not why you die.....

For who you live for? You or others.....?